Things turn out best for the people who make the best of the way things turn out.


December 27, 2011

so easy to lose sight of things.

BE STRONG




there is only one thing that settles for what you're worth- you are. Who you truly are is only found through the eyes of God and in His word. He says I love you with an everlasting love, I never do mistakes, you are not a mistake. You are not a failure, you are a priceless masterpiece from my thoughts and heart, molded by my hands, given skills and talents, given a place in this world only you can fill. I will never leave you nor forsake you, I am always waiting on you. Nothing you have done will ever make me love you less, I love you with all I am.

Don't let your past, your wrong decisions, your shortcomings define your worth or who you are, let them be tools in the loving, caring hand of God to refine you. You can always come to God as you are, but believe me- He won't let you stay as you are, He will love you, care for you, heal you, restore you, lead you out into freedom, He will transform you into a greater likeness of Christ. Yesterday is your past, today you can bring before God, He will plant in your heart the hope of a better tomorrow.

* Song: You are more
* Artist: Tenth Avenue North
* Album: The Light Meets the Dark (2010)

September 13, 2011

LOVE IT WHEN GOD SHOWS OFF.

HE IS CARRYING ME




HE IS MY REMEDY.

July 24, 2011

Speak To Me, Lord.

Suffering as a Christian


12 Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. 13 But rejoice insofar as you share Christ's sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed. 14 If you are insulted for the name of Christ, you are blessed, because the Spirit of glory [1] and of God rests upon you. 15 But let none of you suffer as a murderer or a thief or an evildoer or as a meddler. 16 Yet if anyone suffers as a Christian, let him not be ashamed, but let him glorify God in that name. 17 For it is time for judgment to begin at the household of God; and if it begins with us, what will be the outcome for those who do not obey the gospel of God? 18 And
“If the righteous is scarcely saved,
what will become of the ungodly and the sinner?” [2]
19 Therefore let those who suffer according to God's will entrust their souls to a faithful Creator while doing good.

Out of Fellowship



I really need this today.  I haven't written in so long and I've been so far.  He keeps pulling me back.  Pray that I'll listen.



















March 20, 2011

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October 25, 2010

I'm managing.

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September 30, 2010

He loves me like no other.

Starting Proverbs tomorrow for the month of October.  I've really fallen out of fellowship with God and am looking forward to my journey back into his arms.

May 23, 2010

packin

So, one of these days I'm gonna get me a gun, learn how to shoot it, and get a license to carry it. Kinda scary and empowering all at that the same time. That's just how I'm gonna have to roll. I've got me a good man now. And he takes real good care of me. God shows His hand in our relationship too. He's taking care of me and wants good things for me. Fixes things and builds relationships. He builds up and encourages. I love him. bh.

April 18, 2010

silly

March 23, 2010

wake up.

rough week. good lessons.

March 17, 2010

March 9, 2010

March 8, 2010

January 27, 2010

lover of my soul



Jesus.  The lover of MY soul.

At The Cross

Oh Lord You've searched me

You know my way
Even when I fail You
I know You love me
Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know You love me
I know You love me
At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
What can separate me now

You go before me
You shield my way
Your hand upholds me
I know You love me
You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done
And when the earth fades
Falls from my eyes
And You stand before me
I know You love me
I know You love me

January 18, 2010

His name

"And those who know your name put
 their trust in You,
 for You, O LORD, have not forsaken
those who seek You."
Psalm 9:10
  • Elohim - The Creator
  • El Elyon - The God Most High
  • El Olam - The Everlasting God
  • El Roi - The God Who Sees
  • El Shaddai - The All Sufficient One
  • Adonai - The Lord
  • Jehovah - The Self-Existent One
  • Jehovah-jireh - The Lord Will Provide
  • Jehovah-rapha - The Lord Who Heals
  • Jehovah-nissi - The Lord My Banner
  • Jehovah-mekoddishkem - The Lord Who Sanctifies You
  • Jehovah-shalom - The Lord is Peace
  • Jehovah-raah - The Lord My Shepherd
  • Jehovah-tsidkenu - The Lord Our Righteousness
  • Jehovah-shammah - The Lord is There
  • Qanna - Jealous

December 8, 2009

abuse = fail

Abuse most commonly refers to the use or treatment of something or someone (a person, item, substance, concept, idea or vocabulary) that is harmful, or the lack of proper care of these (neglect). 
  • Child abuse, physical, emotional or sexual abuse directed at a child
  • Elder abuse, physical or psychological threats or neglect, directed at the elderly, particularly those unable to care for themselves
  • Spousal abuse (better known as "domestic violence"), mistreatment of one's domestic partner.
  • Self-abuse, self-destructive behavior
  • Peer abuse, abusive behavior toward one's classmates in a school environment
  • Employee abuse, harassing, threatening, or bullying others in a work environment
  • Animal abuse, cruelty directed at animals

  • Psychological abuse, emotional or psychological coercion used to compel another to do something they do not want to do
  • Physical abuse, infliction of pain or use of violence against another
  • Sexual abuse, improper use of another person for sexual purposes, either against their will or under physical or psychological pressure
  • Child sexual abuse, such abuse of a minor
  • Spiritual abuse, use of religious beliefs to intimidate, coerce, or control another
  • Verbal abuse, use of profanity, demeaning talk, or threatening statements to degrade another

  • Substance abuse
  • Drug abuse
  • Alcohol abuse

 


 

does your significant other

 

call or text often to keep tabs on what you are doing
tell you what you can and can't wear
have to be with you all the time
threaten to hurt themselves if you don't obey them
get angry quickly or fight a lot
make all the decisions or give orders
call you names, insult you, or criticize you
become jealous, possessive, controlling, or bossy
threaten to hurt you or someone you love
follow you, track where you go, show up unannounced or invited
refuse to accept a break up
use alcohol or drugs and pressure you to try it
shove, kick, pinch, hit, choke, strangle, pull your hair, shove
touch you or force you to something physically that you don't want to do

 

November 23, 2009


November 15, 2009

Gerber Daisy


My favorite flower as well.  Thinking and praying for another who shares that commonality.

October 18, 2009

Heresy

Beware of false doctrine.


THE RESTORATION OF CHRIST (website where I cut this from.)


The Restoration of TruthGod is your Father in Heaven. He knows you personally. Jesus Christ is the Son of God and your Savior. His life and teachings are the way to peace and happiness.


God knows you personally and loves you more than you can comprehend. He wants you to be happy now and always. To accomplish this purpose, Heavenly Father has provided a plan called the gospel of Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ is the Son of God; His teachings are the way to peace in life and joy for eternity.


As part of His plan, God has followed a simple pattern from the beginning of the world. He chooses a prophet (like Noah or Moses) to teach the gospel and lead the people. Sadly, most of God’s children have disregarded, disobeyed, and rejected His prophets.

As promised, Heavenly Father sent His Son, Jesus Christ, to earth. Jesus Christ lived a perfect, sinless life. He established His Church, taught His gospel, and performed many miracles. Incredibly, even Jesus Christ was rejected. Following His death, many people began to drift away from or distort Christ’s true teachings. As a result, God withdrew His authority to direct the Church that Christ had established.

Our loving Father in Heaven is the “same yesterday, and to day, and for ever" (see Hebrews 13:8). As in ancient times, He has followed His simple pattern in our day. He has again established the gospel of Jesus Christ on the earth through a prophet. This prophet whom the Lord called to restore God’s truth is named Joseph Smith. The evidence of this Restoration is found in the Book of Mormon, which you can read, ponder, and pray about.

God continues to speak His words and reveal His truth in our day through a living prophet. If you ask your Heavenly Father in prayer, He can confirm the truth of this to you.



A lot of this is untrue.  This is NOT what the Bible teaches.

Some characteristics of a cult are:
  • Mixing the truth with lies.
  • Using Christian terminology with different definitions.
  • forcing beliefs
  • restricting freedoms
  • bait and switch
I pray for the false churches to be exposed for their lies and for their members eye's to be opened to the lies that they are ignorant to.  I pray for the hearts of all of it's members to be quickened with the truth that God has breathed into His Holy Bible.  I pray for all false religion to be exposed for the untruths that it preaches and for the truth of Jesus Christ to be heard all over the world.

October 17, 2009

wow, look out Edward Norton



http://www.christianmusic.com/shawn_mcdonald/shawn_mcdonald.htm

http://www.shawnmcdonaldmusic.com/

Yahoo! Video

This is an awesome website.  Yahoo! Video

I never knew I had this feature on my Yahoo.  Contemporary Christian Music Videos.  Very cool.  You can pick other music but I'm excited about this one because I have never seen most of the videos for the songs I listen to on KLOVE.  I don't have any TV set up or hooked up excpet for a converter box and rabbit ears and I really don't get but two channels I understand.  Having access to this genre of music is a rare find for me unless I want to search Youtube.  Which I don't if I can have it all right here on this little page on my email provider page.

September 22, 2009

HOW HE LOVES US

He is jealous for me,

Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,

Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.

When all of a sudden,

I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,

And I realise just how beautiful You are,

And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us so,

Oh how He loves us,

How He loves us all

Yeah, He loves us,

Whoa! how He loves us,

Whoa! how He loves us,

Whoa! how He loves.

Yeah, He loves us,

Whoa! how He loves us,

Whoa! how He loves us,

Whoa! how He loves.

We are His portion and He is our prize,

Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,

If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.

So Heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss,

And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,

I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,

When I think about, the way…

He loves us,

Whoa! how He loves us,

Whoa! how He loves us,

Oh how He loves.

Yeah, He loves us,

Whoa! how He loves us,

Whoa! how He loves us,

Whoa! how He loves.

Well, I thought about You the day Stephen died,

And You met me between my breaking.

I know that I still love You, God, despite the agony.

...They want to tell me You're cruel,

But if Stephen could sing, he'd say it's not true, cause...

Cause He loves us, Whoa! how He loves us.

Whoa! how He loves us. Whoa! how He loves.

Yeah, He loves us,

Whoa! how He loves us,

Whoa! how He loves us, Whoa! how He loves.

LYRICS BY JOHN MCMILLAN

September 17, 2009

lay it down


It is so frustrating to try so hard to help someone and for them to not listen. I'm sure my father can relate. When you've come from a bad place you don't want to watch anyone else walk in there. And you want everyone who is in the that bad place to come out. You wanna warn them. You want to counsel them. But they won't listen, just as you wouldn't. Just as I didn't. There's nothing you can do to change someone. They have to want to change. The one thing I have learned is that you can change yourself. And sometimes. That's what the situation needs.


he waits for her to understand
but she won't understand at all
she waits all night for him to call
but he won't call anymore
he waits to hear her say
forgive
but she just drops her pearl-black eyes
and prays to hear him say
i love you
but he tells no more lies
he waits for her to sympathize
but she won't sympathize at all
she waits all night to feel his kiss
but always wakes alone
he waits to hear her say
forget
but she just hangs her head in pain
and prays to hear him say
no more
i'll never leave again
how did we get this far apart?
we used to be so close together
how did we get this far apart?
i thought this love would last forever
he waits for her to understand
but she won't understand at all
she waits all night for him to call
but he won't call
he waits to hear her say
forgive
but she just drops her pearl-black eyes
and prays to hear him say
i love you
but he tells no more lies
how did we get this far apart?
we used to be so close together
how did we get this far apart?
i thought this love would last forever

Apart
[ The Cure Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]






Apart ( LP Version ) - The Cure

August 23, 2009

Take your hands off me, I don't belong to you

Standing at the door of the pink flamingo
Crying in the rain
It was a kind of so so love,
And I'm gonna make sure it doesn't happen again.
You and I had to be the standing joke of the year.

You were a run around,
A lost and found.
And not for me I feel.
Take your hands off me, please.
I don't belong to you, you see.
Take a look in my face, for the last time.
I never knew you, you never knew me.
Say hello, goodbye.
Say hello and wave goodbye.
We tried to make it work, you in a cocktail skirt.
And me in a suit, and it just wasn't me.
You're used to wearing less, and now your life's a mess.
So insecure you seem.
I put up with all the scenes,
This is one scene,
That's goin to be played my way
Take your hands off me, please
I dont belong to you, you see.
Take a look in my face, for the last time.
I never knew you, you never knew me.
Say hello, goodbye.
Say hello and wave goodbye.
Say hello and wave goodbye.
Under the deep red light,
I can see the make up sliding down.
Well hey little girl, you will will always make up
So take off that unbecoming frown.
As for me well, Ill find some one
Who's not going cheap in the sales.
A nice little house wife, who'll give me a steady life.
And not keep going off the rails


Take your hands off me, please
I don't belong to you, you see.
Take a look in my face, for the last time.
I never knew you, you never knew me.
Say hello, goodbye.

Say hello and wave goodbye.
Say hello and wave goodbye.
Say hello and wave goodbye.
Wave goodbye.
Say hello and wave goodbye.
Say hello, wave goodbye.
Goodbye.
Say goodbye.
Say goodbye.
We were born before the wind.
Who were we to understand.
We were born before the wind

Say goodbye.
Through the rain, hail, sleet and snow,
Say good bye.
And Im trying, trying, trying
To say goodbye.
Say goodbye.
Say goodbye.
Say goodbye.
In the wind and the rain my darling.
Say goodbye.








August 20, 2009

I am...



a mother, father, nurse, disciplinarian, comforter, child, daughter, sister, counselor, Christian, bad girl, granddaughter, ex wife, ex girlfriend, sister in law, daughter in law, aunt, friend, team mom, den leader, maid, teacher, bus driver, a burden, emotional, strong, weak, a victim, abused, an abuser, alcoholic, addict, recovered, redeemed, angry, at peace, sad, happy, lonely, loved, surrounded, prayed for, the cool mom, naive, experienced, trusting, guarded, hurt, healed, indifferent, passionate, lazy, enthusiastic, decision maker, free, burdened, overwhelmed, handling it, soft, hard, funny, serious, unaware, ignorant, smart, forgiven, unshackled, a bully, mean, sarcastic, kind, compassionate, tired, hyper, loud, bold, inappropriate, spot on, tree trimmer, exterminator, landscaper, jack of all trades, unsure, certain, rooted, in charge, under thumb, annoying, fun, people person, misunderstood, unemployed, an employee, standing firm in His promises.


August 19, 2009

dcb he loves us

Faye

My grandmother died tonight.
The nicest person I've ever met just left to meet her Creator 15 minutes ago. Praise God for His mercy and grace and that my 83 year old grandmother Faye Hartman had accepted Christ. I mourn with those who mourn here on earth and I rejoice with those of us who know the Lord and His promises of an eternal life in His presence.

She was in no pain. 4 years ago they told her she wouldn't last 6 months with her cancer. 13 days ago the ER said she wouldn't make it through the night. She passed in a state of unresponsiveness for a few days under morphine with little or no pain.

Faye Hartman


SHILOH-Wanda Faye Hartman, 83, of Shiloh passed away at TIME on, DAY & DATE, at NAME OF LOCATION, IE., ROSEWOOD.She was born in Commerce Missouri on June 16, 1926 to Sybil Marie (Smithson) and Herbert Warren. She married George Joseph Hartman on January 1, 1943; he preceded her in death in 1999.She was also preceded in death by her son, Terry Lynn in 1978 at age 27.She is survived by her children Georgia Kent of Chatham, Charlotte Bruce (husband Robert) of Shiloh, and Michael (wife, Billie) of San Antonio, Texas, seven grandchildren and thirteen great-grandchildren.

Faye was a member of Shiloh United Methodist Church, and a former member of Prospect Park Methodist Church. She was very active in her church until her illness prevented her participation. She was a Sunday School teacher, and a MYF (Methodist Youth Fellowship) leader.

In her youth Faye modeled for Sears catalog; however, her career was a more than 20 year stint with the Red Lobster restaurants. There she started as a server, but quickly worked her way up the ranks to traveling to new restaurants to train personnel prior to opening. She was proud of her articles that were published almost every month in the Red Lobster Tails newsletter.

During her residency in French Village she was a Cub Scout Den Mother and active in the Community Center. When she moved to the Shiloh area she became a member of the Galaxy Twirlers Square Dance club. Many years, dresses, and conventions later, she was instrumental in starting the Cadence Cloggers; a youth group of tap dancing square dancers who are still going strong today.

Some of Faye’s other interests were reading, astrology, studying various religions, biographical information and always, young people. She had a generous nature and wanted nothing more than to help others.

Visitation will be held from 4:00 until 8:00 pm DAY, IE., THURSDAY at Schildknecht Funeral Home located in O’Fallon, Illinois. Services will be held at 10:00 a.m.DAY, with the Rev. Eric M. Hartman of Providence Church in Plano, Texas officiating. Burial will be at Lakeview Cemetery in Fairview Heights, with committal taking place in their Chapel.


...since you have been born again, not of perishable seed but of imperishable, through the living and abiding word of God; for "All flesh is like grass and all its glory like the flowers of grass. The grass withers, and the flower falls, but the word of the Lord remains forever.


"If the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, He who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit who dwells in you.

Wanda Faye Hartman

83 years old, kind hearted, White Castle customer, former Red Lobster waitress, Honda driver, Cardinals fan, Cheez It provider, Scotcheroo maker, night owl, stray taker in er, Illinois resident, Shiloh Methodist member, mother of 4, grandmother of 7, friend of many, minister to my (ex) husband even after I gave up, Jesus lover, the nicest person I ever met, my grandmother.



August 16, 2009

MMP 'Shadows'



August 14, 2009

MMP 'Boyfriend'



August 13, 2009

MMP 'That Guy'



August 11, 2009

MMP 'Family'


August 9, 2009

MMP 'Mother'




May 5, 2009

Yay Lauren!

This is so neat that my church does this. Every year near the end of the school year they present Bibles to the first graders now that they can read. I love that she got a pink one. Lauren is the cutie with pigtails, leggings, glasses, and the purse.

May 2, 2009

Say Hello and Wave Goodbye

Standing at the door of the pink flamingo
Crying in the rain
It was a kind of so so love,
And Im gonna make sure it doesnt happen again.

You and I had to be the standing joke of the year.
You were a run around,
A lost and found.
And not for me I feel.

Take your hands off me, please
I dont belong to you, you see.

Take a look in my face, for the last time.
I never knew you., you never knew me.
Say hello, goodbye.

Say hello and wave goodbye.

We tried to make it work, you in a cocktail skirt.
And me in a suit, and it just wasnt me.
Youre used to wearing less, and now your lifes a mess.
So insecure you seem.

I put up with all the scenes,
This is one scene,
Thats goin to be played my way

Take your hands off me, please
I dont belong to you, you see.

Take a look in my face, for the last time.
I never knew you., you never knew me.
Say hello, goodbye.

Say hello and wave goodbye.
Say hello and wave goodbye.

Under the deep red light,
I can see the make up slidding down.
Well hey little girl, you will will always make up
So take off that unbecoming frown.

As for me well, Ill find some one
Whos not going cheap in the sales.
A nice little house wife, wholl give me a steady life.
And not keep going off the rails.

Take your hands off me, please
I dont belong to you, you see.

Take a look in my face, for the last time.
I never knew you., you never knew me.
Say hello, goodbye.

Say hello and wave goodbye.
Say hello and wave goodbye.
Say hello and wave goodbye.
Wave goodbye.
Say hello and wave goodbye.
Say hello, wave goodbye.
Goodbye.
Say goodbye.
Say goodbye.

We were born before the wind.
Who were we to understand.
We were born before the wind
Say goodbye.

Through the rain, hail, sleet and snow,
Say good bye.
And Im trying, trying, trying
To say goodbye.
Say goodbye.
Say goodbye.
Say goodbye.

In the wind and the rain my darling.

Say goodbye.

In the wind and the rain my darling...

~~David Gray
Say Hello Wave Goodbye


Say Hello Wave Goodbye - David Gray

It took me a long time to realize how much power I had given him over me. I'm nobody's property and nobody should lay their hands on me. I'm learning to have boundaries, healthy ones. The kind that let the good in and keep the bad out. Seems simple really but it's amazing how fast we can lose our boundaries and then one day look around and see that we have no boundary lines at all. I still care about what happens to my ex but I never again want to give him or anybody that much control over me. I'm glad that I have such a strong support system with my friends and my church. I suggest reading "Boundaries" by Henry Cloud if you have issues with saying no to people.

February 28, 2009

February 14, 2009

February 13, 2009

Love






By Your Side

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

(Chorus 2x)

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

(Chorus 2x)


--Tenth Avenue North